I know you’re scared. You feel open and bare as if a gentle breeze could hurt you. There are so many different emotions running through you. One moment you feel excited and hopeful. Butterflies dance in the stomach of your host and you feel like you’re on the right track – God’s track.
Recent years have been a re-inventing of self as a new Christian woman; bit by bit, stripping yourself of who you once were. ‘The old has passed away; behold, the new has come’ (2. Cor 5:17). It sounds so simple, yet you realise that discovering this ‘new you’ may be a life’s work. It’s a journey.
Once you’ve stripped off the old, it’s time for new layers to be added. It’s time to allow God to colour-in the picture of you as a Christian woman. Study those colours and contemplate the different nuances in each one. You know that you’re God’s beloved daughter and you’re instructed to ‘put on the new self, created after the likeness of God in true righteousness and holiness’ (Ephesians 4:24). But what does that look like in practice? And how does that appear in the way you fill your days and your thoughts? How do you like to express yourself? And what are your hopes for the future?
Things that once mattered seem insignificant now. New dreams and hopes are emerging. Fragments of that new self slowly appear. You think you’ve discovered your God-given gifts and you are under the impression that you know how to use them correctly. However, things that make you feel excited and hopeful the one moment, make you feel discouraged and anxious the next. Questions creep up. Is it silly to hope? Should you even try? Will this just lead to another disappointment?
But then you remember your God. A warmth and a sense of peace streams into you. Your God is good (Psalm 34:8). The God who created everything, my beating heart, is immensely good, loving, and wise. It is the same God that promises ‘that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose’ (Romans 8:28).
Jenna lives in the countryside of North Wales with her husband Nathan. She works part-time in a café and enjoys writing for her blog a Hopeful Home in her spare time. Natural and sustainable lifestyle, home design, gardening, and homebody busy keepings. These are some of the things she writes about.